Skip to main content

Beautiful Terrible Cross



Short post today. It has been one of the tough days. I don't think about it often, but today, thoughts about Ellie's last day have plagued me. Everything from the moment she stopped breathing in my arms to sitting in the conference room when the doctors told us there was nothing else they could do for her to the her final moments with us. It was an awful day. I came across this video the other night when I was up the whole night with insomnia. It's called, "The Gravity and Weight of Suffering."


So much of this resonates with me. I've had those moments of feeling overwhelmed to the point that I feel like I'm completely spent and nothing else is left. Jesus wept as He walked in the gravity of loss. Watching this, I'm reminded that Jesus understands the pain and sorrow. He experienced it himself. Jesus' soul felt overwhelmed to the point of death. He knew what was about to happen to Him, and He dreaded it.

I've said before that when I was putting together my birthing playlist to listen to as Ellie came into the world, I felt particularly drawn to songs about the cross and the suffering of Christ. At the time, I didn't really understand why. Now I do. I have such a greater appreciation for the cross now that part of me lives in heaven. This song was one of the songs in my birthing playlist, a beautiful picture of His sacrifice.


Beautiful Terrible Cross - Selah
There is a beautiful terrible cross
Where though You committed no sin
Savior You suffered the most wicked fate
On the cruelest creation of men

Yet on that beautiful terrible cross
You did what only You could
Turning that dark inspired evil of hell
Into our soul’s greatest good

We see the love that You showed us
We see the life that You lost
We bow in wonder and praise You
For the beautiful terrible cross

There on that beautiful terrible cross
Though darkness was strong on that hill
You remained sovereign, Lord, still in control
As Your perfect plan was fulfilled

We see the love that You showed us
We see the life that You lost
We bow in wonder and praise You
For the beautiful terrible cross

We gained the riches of heaven
Jesus You paid the horrible cost
We stand forgiven and praise You
For the beautiful terrible cross
For the beautiful terrible cross

In the cross, in the cross
Be my glory ever
Till my raptured soul shall find 
Rest beyond the river

On these hard days, It is comforting to know that Jesus has walked the path I'm walking. He knows. And He is here. And because of His sacrifice, I can have hope for tomorrow. 💗

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The Story of Ellie Love

As I sit down to write, I’m not even sure where to begin. Eleanor “Ellie” Love Kropchuk was the most beautiful surprise. In March 2017, my husband Matthew and I were so excited to find out she was on the way to join big brother Timothy (3 years old) and big sister Caroline (20 months). Since I already have two children, pregnancy was nothing new for me. But Ellie was different. I won’t go into all the reasons why now, but even my doctor at one point commented as we laughed together about how active Ellie always was that this pregnancy was just different than the others. Around 7 months into my pregnancy, I felt led to create a playlist that I would listen to during my birthing time. If you know me, you probably know that I LOVE music. Always have. God often uses music to minster to me in very unique and specific ways. My favorite thing to do is throw a bunch of favorite songs into a playlist and then put it on shuffle because He always brings the exact songs I need in the mome...
2 comments
Read more

Glory Baby - Announcing Elizabeth Grace Kropchuk

Today we celebrated the life of our precious Elizabeth "Lizzie" Grace Kropchuk. Most people didn't know Lizzie existed yet. Actually, I've been anxiously waiting for this Sunday, Mother's Day, to arrive because it seemed like the perfect time to share the wonderful news that Ellie has been promoted to BIG SISTER! I've said before that oftentimes I have one thing in mind that I'd like to share and then God takes things in a completely different direction. This week has been no exception. This is a REALLY important post, so I hope you'll keep reading... As I said, I had originally planned to share this post on Sunday, Mother's Day. I anticipated that Mother's Day would be bittersweet this year, exciting to anticipate new life and adding to our family but also grieving that Sunday will be 6 months since Ellie went to heaven. Even just the thought of sharing our joyous news was enough to take a little bit of the sting away. At my church, the...
Post a Comment
Read more

Amaryllis Prayers

  This post has been “brewing” for several days now, but I just haven’t felt it was the right time to sit down and write it until now. As I am writing, I'm in awe yet again of God's perfect timing and how He continues to lead and guide me as I write these posts and share what's on my heart. Today is the coldest day of winter we've had so far this year, a deep freeze. As I sit here typing, I look outside my window and notice what a beautiful sunny day it is, despite the freezing temperatures. Ironic that God would inspire me to write about the coldest season of my soul on the coldest day of the year. Anyway...   So a couple of days after Christmas, I had the rare opportunity as a mom of 2 toddlers to be out and about by myself. I went to see my chiropractor and then on my way home, I decided I needed to go by the cemetery before going home. I messaged my husband, worried about being gone for too long since he was watching the kids. He graciously told me to tak...
2 comments
Read more