How was your Christmas? Seems like an innocent enough question to ask. In fact, many people do. But how do you answer that when it feels like a piece of your heart has been ripped out? Most people know that the holidays can be difficult for someone grieving the loss of a loved one. It’s awkward. We don’t really know what to say. So we ask, “How was your Christmas?” I still find it difficult to verbalize a lot of things aloud. That’s one of the reasons why I love writing so much. I can cry all the tears as I type, even when my eyes are too blurry to even see the screen. It helps more than I can express to write my thoughts and feelings down, even if in electronic form. However, it is SO HARD for me to talk about it sometimes because I just know that I’ll burst into tears at any moment. Don't get me wrong, that’s not always a bad thing. I don’t try to keep the tears from coming. But I am careful about when and how I let them come. Mostly I prefer to get alone with Jesus and cry ...
A blog about my personal journey grieving the loss of my infant daughter, Eleanor "Ellie" Love and subsequent pregnancy losses.